The "Goodbye" came a little sooner than I was planning on it coming. I guess it was better this way. So there is no concert tonight, apparently he had something to do for school. I took it as my opportunity to tell him what I finally needed to say. As my cousin but it to me today... he has in fact done way more harm than good. I guess I was always trying to find the good that he let everyone else only see. I was the one that saw this other side of him and kept wondering how no one else saw it and how they all adored him, all my friends and all my family. He had them all fooled. Well no longer. My message to him... "Such a bummer you cant come but anyway I guess you wont mind this, but GOODBYE. for real this time." His reply (which is driving me absolutely crazy) was "." thats right all I got was a freakin' period. Now that he's outta my life theres one thing left to do. Compose the email to "her".
With him I became the girl that I had always hated. I have been cheated on in most of my relationships and I always wondered how those girls could do that.. and I hated them. Well he turned me into one of those girls. I knew very well they were "together" but he just made it seem okay. Well he no longer has me fooled. I know she is too young most likely to actually see his game, and knowing the situation he will talk his way out of it. But I am going to do my part. She needs to know, and plus maybe I can stop beating myself up over it and just maybe it will make me feel a bit better about the situation...
Goodbye forever....have a good life... No more I miss you but dont tell her... Im done! and I couldn't be happier right now...
I couldnt decide between two songs because half of me feels one way and then deep deep down feels a little bit of another way.
"And does she know? Know about the times you used to hold me, wrapped me in your arms and how you told me I'd be the only one?....Cause I'll be there in the back of your mind, from the day we met to the very last night and it's just too bad, you've already had the best days, the best days of your life...with me was a fairy tale love. I was head-over-heels 'til you threw away us.....I heard you're gonna get married.....live out my dreams with someone new, but i've been told that a cheater is ALWAYS a cheater so I've got my pride, and shes got you..." -Kelly Pickler
"We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go"- The Frey....Idk a little little little part of me feels this way.
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